Been a little Busy

What's up What's up.......

So your boy has been a little busy, with some projects, so no time for blogging. Pardon.
One of the projects that I've been working on is this Olympic game at my office. The short version of it; I created this game where people in the office have to pick their favorite Olympian.....from there points are awarded based on the number of medals that Olympian wins. There is going to be a medal ceremony and everything when it's all said and done. It's actually going pretty well. I basically started it, because I thought it would be a fun time to pass what is somewhat of a slow period in our office. I will have you know, My Favorite Olympian is Chad Hederick...if you don't know who he is......SHAME ON YOU. He is SFH(So Effing Hot)



The other project that I've been working on is one that I'm very proud of. I've written a couple of times about how I really want to do something as far as the Gulf Coast Region is considered. Well, while watching CNN the other night there was a special report about what has been going on since the Hurricane. The report itself stemmed from Oprah doing a special about the same topic. So once again, I felt really bad, because I still had not done anything to help out. So at 1am, I decided to start a blog where people can post their stories about what has happened down there. My thinking was that this way their stories could not be forgotten and hopefully will reach other people that may not have known or cared about any of this. Here is the site... www.westillcare2006.blogspot.com ....which I hope you will check out. If you have a blog, I'm asking that you link this site to yours so that maybe someone reading your blog will go to this one and somehow want to take some kind of action. It only takes one person.

Something kind of Random

So...here's to catching you up to speed.

1) Might go down to NOLA (that new orleans...for those that don't know)Found this awesome site. There is also a lot more stuff on the website. In case you don't click on the link...it's a link to Habitat for Humanity NOLA and specifically for St. Bernard Parish. If I go, it will be from Feb. 26-March 4th. A co-worker is also interested in going, so this could be an awesome time to share with someone else. Wish us luck....we have to ask for the time off. Even if I can't go this time around, look for me to be down there sometime after April. I really wasn't kidding when I said that I want to help out.

2) Valentine's Day is coming up and yours truly is a big fan of the holiday. I know that it's a commercial holiday....but aren't all holidays? I mean really....Mary did not give Jesus a chocolate bunny when he came out of the tomb...
Anywho, I can't tell you what I'm doing, but it's going to be great....I will report more after the day

3) I've been a real bitch lately.....something's in the wind and I have a feeling that it's here to stay. BTW....what's wrong with being a bitch?

4) Starting today until Sunday one of my gurls is celebrating her Birfday...so I'm sure that come next week I will have plenty-o stories.

And now for a comment from your local station.....

I understand that I will never know the full effects of Hurricane Katrina or Rita, I don't live in the south. I do know that I want to help and that there are a million other people out there just like me that want to lend a hand. The thing that makes me the most upset is seeing these people have to beg for help from the gov't. I am not one to get into a political debates about this gov't or past...don't take that as I don't get involved.....but it's time for people to wake up. It's not going to happen, no matter how many times someone gets on TV and says that he/she promises that help is on the way. LIES!!! If being away from my family for well over 7yrs has taught me anything, it's that you have to help yourself before anyone else can. I'm sure that there are people who live in hurricane devastated areas who are doing things for themselves....but my one warning is don't wait too long for help, for if you do, the city that you once loved, will be gone.

I have a mistress

So...his name is Oscar and I love that he only comes around once a year. I'm way too tired when he leaves.....he is so needy and he takes so long, like he can go for hours.

In case you didn't know Oscar nominations were announced this morning, which by the way is why I was late to work...damnn Today show. I love them so much, because all year people have been seeing movies and stupid critics weigh in with their opinions and then all of the sudden Oscar comes out of nowhere and he has the final say. As usual I haven't seen many of the pics nominated. Of the ones that I have seen...

BrokeBack Mountian-
Loved it. One of the best Movies that I have seen in a very long time. Of course my bf Jakie G was awesome to look at, but it was a story of much more then just "gay cowboys". I think that Heath and Michelle stand the best chance at winning in their categories. I believe that the movie will win best-adopted screenplay, best film, and best director. THE END

TransAmerica-
My home girl Felicity is amazing in this movie and should win.....if that slut Reese doesn't sneak in somehow. If you haven't seen this movie do it now...it was a lot funnier then I imagined.

Crash-
This is a movie that everyone should have to see...sort of like Roots. It is that important. The entire cast is so good, but unfortunately I think it will walk away empty handed in the major categories. Still, if you haven't seen it, go rent it.

Then of course there is all the other movies that I will need to devote two weekends to; either renting DVD’s or going to the movies. Capote, Good Night Good Luck, Syriana, Hustle and Flow, Walk the Line...and a bunch more.

To everyone nominated....I say Good Luck, and if you need a date, I'm free that day.

Sorry

So....I'm sorry that I haven't posted in a week or whatever.... a lot of stuff has been going on in my life, which means no time for blogging. For the most part, everything that happened, happened for a reason......but hopefully from here on out I make the right choices. Don't really want to blog about everything...just know that life changed and stood still for a while.
In other news, I have decided to stop being passive-aggressive. I've realized that it just makes me want to be that much more of a bitch. I don't really know where I learned to be passive-aggressive, it just happened. Then one day last week, nothing major happened that caused the change, I just decided that I didn't want to be like that anymore. In getting older, I've realized that there are certain things that I will put up and then there are those things that make me have the largest headache in the world. I don't want that headache anymore....

Time to Tune In

So it's that time of the year again.....where the weather turns ungodly cold, work becomes some what routine, and TV becomes amazing once again. Every year about a month before Christmas all the networks, even some cable stations, stop showing new episodes of your favorite show and pause so that we can take time and reflect on what the "holiday" really mean to us...fuck that.....I want a new episode of Desperate....Well my friends the wait is over.
In case you missed it here is a play-by-play of each network;

ABC- Starting last week ABC kicked things off with an amazing recap of Lost.....the first hour was dedicated to what happen before the break....and if you missed it, oh well, it was awesome to catch up....but the fun didn't stop there. The next hour was all new.....btw....I'm not going to talk about plot, b/c if you haven't seen Lost in a while or you've never seen the show, you are missing out and I would suggest that you hop on the boat before it goes to far down the river. Anywho.....Even this week Lost was again amazing....let's just say that there is a reason this is on the best shows on TV.
Of course ABC's power horse Desperate has yet to disappoint this fan. I do know of a couple of people....names will not be mentioned....that have not cared for this season. Some have said that the stories in the beginning were not tied together, as they were in the first season, and that turned a lot of people off. I disagree with that. If this show is to last we can not ask for the same thing week after week....instead, why not play with character development....I for one loved the first part of this season and look forward to all the Desperate I can get.

NBC - I have to be honest in saying that after the original "Must See TV" lineup went by the wayside I stopped watching the peacock network for a while. Of course I have always been about Will and Grace, but even that kind of turned into the same'ol gay jokes season after season....plus I can catch past episodes on Lifetime and the WB, so why skip all-you-can-drink at the local watering hole just for one show....I don't think so. Well let me one of many to shout the praises of NBC's new Thursday nite lineup...it's not like the original but its hella funny. Starting with Will and Grace......this season is one of the funniest in a long time. If you missed the episode with the Sound of Music sing-along, you missed some funny shit. If this is there last season, I'm glad to see it go out laughing.
NBC's newest addiction is The Office. If you don't know the story, the Peacock borrowed the story from the Brits and in my opinion made it ten times funnier. At first it was kind of a struggle to get into the show, b/c me thinks it was on Wed. and you know my Wed. belong to another network...which we will get to in one second. Now that it is on Thurs. we are all good.....Seriously, if you haven't watched this show yet, get on board....Steve Corale is one of the funniest people to hit TV since Eddie Murphy.

CBS- In the words of my two favorite gay film critics....."HATED IT". I am not 45 yet....

FOX- I have to tell you that I was a little worried about the home of the Simpsons.... I mean really once Joe Millionaire Paris came out....I had to take a break....even the OC had become a little stale. And then, 24. If you have not watched this show.....MAKE IT A MUST. Things kicked off with a 2-day two hour premier. I know right.....the thing to know about the show is that each episode is one hour of time....meaning that the season is a full 24hrs.....
Welcome back to the OC.....if you were like me, you took a break from Newport and swung over to Laguna Beach for a hot minute, because things in Newport were becoming a little LAME. I have yet to watch the new episodes, they are TIVO'd and waiting, but if the previews are worth anything, things in the OC are going to be popping again.
Fox I have to say is trying to hit you with the three punches this fall and they don't seem like they are going to rest until you can't take it anymore. There last hit of the fall is the ever popular American Idol. Filled with all the lames of pervious years and some interesting talent...Idol looks to be as ever addicting as usual.

Bravo- Again the gayest network in the world does not disappoint. Project Runway...or PJR...is once again AMAZING. If you missed last season, go to Blockbuster and rent it now!!!!!!!!!! Although this season lacks some of the freshness of last year, it still holds true to everything that last season was, ADDICTIVE AND ENTERTAINING.

I know that there is a lot more shows out there, some that might be just as awesome as the shows that are listed above...if so, let a brotha know. Again, if you are not watching TV this fall....what the hell else are you doing MAN!!!

Olivia Newton John

So....before the new year I decided that I was going to stop wasting my gym membership. I joined the gym after a long struggle with myself...do I or don't I, which one do I join, am I really going to go..yada, yada, yada. So after a friend of mine.....one who wears short pants at the gym... suggested that I look at the gym he goes to. I did so and found out that they were having a sweet deal, no membership fee and only $50 a month....I couldn't beat that with a stick, so I decided to go for it.
Now you have to understand that at the time that I joined the gym, I was living with a friend close to the gym and I was also working within walking distance of the gym....so as you can imagine, it was a match made in heaven. I went all the time, actually put on a little weight and was absolutely in love with the gym. Then it happened.....I got sick. When I say "sick", I don't mean a head cold......stuffy nose..I mean full out sick, like couldn't get out of the bed for a couple of days...couldn't start my new job sick. Needless to say I couldn't go to the gym for sometime, I believe it was a total of a month and some weeks.
So after I got better I would go from time time. Never really getting back in the groove that I once had down so perfectly. I made a pact with myself that after the New Year I would get back on my routine and not waste my money and get back in shape. Well that has kind of happened. I did start going... and I have to say that I am proud of myself for just that alone.....I no longer live in walking distance to it, in fact I have to take the metro from my job and then walk three blocks to get to it. After the gym I have to walk about five blocks to the bus and then get off the bus and walk about three blocks home. All in all a much different experience then the one that I originally signed up for. In the end I guess it just comes down to me wanting to make a change in my life and not minding so much if I have to get physical to do so....

A plea of sorts

So, today while reading the paper I came across an article in the Washington Post that talked about students returning to school in New Orleans. Displaced Students Return To La. for 2nd College Try. The article goes on to talk about the feelings of several different students in the DC area that go to school in New Orleans. Some students say that they can't wait to get back to the city, which I can understand...parents and all. While others, go on to say that they don't want to leave the schools that they are currently attending.
I understand both sides of the issue, but I don't think that I will ever fully understand because I'm so removed from that environment and or that situation. I have never lived in an area that was damaged by a natural disaster...never went to school that was hit by a hurricane. But, at the end of the day when I read articles that describe what is happening, what did happen in New Orleans, I can't help but hurt. The thing is, I don't know what I can do.....
So I have decided to make a plea on here....my blog, which no one probably ever reads. But just in case, if you do know of something that a college grad with a degree in Communications and two years of buying experience and a year of admissions work can do to help out, please leave a comment. I have a big heart, not a lot of money, but all the time in the world to help out those who can't help themselves. I would be willing to come down to the Gulf Coast.....OBVI, I would need more then a moments notice...but willing none the less.

In the news

So last nite I decided to take a peek at the NYtimes to see what the news would be like tomorrow. Much to my surprise I found an article on one of my favorite books of last year.... A Million little Pieces by James Frey. The title of the article was Best-Seller memoir Draws Scrutiny. So of course I had to read it.
To kind of my surprise the article went on to discuss how some parts of the book my not have happened (Frey claims that the book is non-fiction). If you haven't read the book I won't spoil it for you....I will just say that no matter what, this book should be on your must-read list. Anywho, the article goes on to talk about how some of the arrest and jail time that Frey talks about in the book didn't happen. It also ask questions about other parts of the book that it thinks are important pieces of the book.
My gripe with the article itself, is that it assumes that everyone who read it took away the same things......that somehow his arrest and time spent in jail played a huge part of the book and the readers experience. I say no. The arrest and jail time were such little parts of a much bigger, deeper story, that even if they were made up they would make no significant difference in the overall tone of the book. What this reader took away from the book was that here was a man that went through some horrible stuff....namely, drug addiction and alcoholism. In fighting through these addictions this man comes out stronger then when he went in. If anything, the book taught me to be patient and "hold on".......if you focus enough on something, like making yourself better, it will happen eventually.
So to Mr. Frey I say, "Hold on". I applaud you in writing such a amazing book, that everyone from drug addicts to house wives found that they all have something in common.... life and it's struggles.

Stolen...

So....here goes a little infor about Moi....I got it from my bestie Chris who got it from this cutie named Sean.......

Four jobs you’ve had in your life: Membership Service Counsleor(Triple A), Admin. Asst, Asst. Buyer, Admissions Counselor

Four movies you could watch over and over: Elizabeth, My Best Friends Wedding, The Sound of Music, Moulin Rogue

Four places you’ve lived: St. Louis,MO; West Lafayette, IN; Budapest, Hungary; Pittsburgh, PA

Four TV shows you love to watch: Lost, Project Runway, ANTM, Desperate Houswives

Four places you’ve been on vacation: San Franscio, Miami, Niece, Venice

Four websites you visit daily: Washington Post, Dlisted, ESPN, NY Times

Four of your favorite foods: Mashed potatoes, meatloaf, pizza, french fries

Four places you’d rather be: a beach, BF’s bed, a spa, Austria

Four albums you can’t live without: Miseducation of Lauren Hill, Jill Scott 826+, Songs about Jane, Kind of Blue

Four magazines you read: Entertainment Weekly, Sports Illustruated, US weekly, Cargo

Four cars you’ve owned: ’86 Corsica, and ’01 Bravada…that’s it, cars don’t so much like me; the Corsica died and the Bravada had it’s own problems…

Are you ready for some football

So the entire weekend was pretty much lived by watching football......well the week and the weekend.
For those of you who don't know me, I love college football....don't ask me to explain, because I really can't. I remember that I originally started watching football as a way to have something to discuss with straight guys that I would meet in college my freshman year. In all honesty I had started watching football my freshman year of high school.....Yes, I was a band geek. I played in the marching band all four years of high school and decided that I would try to continue the same in college. Not being that involved with the sport in high school I knew the basic rules, but knew that if I were to go to a large school, like I wanted to, that I would need to know a bit more about the game in order to hold conversations with people....most likely because I wasn't ready to come out and at the time I thought that straight guys only talked about football.
So anywho....I got accepted to Purdue and end up watching my first Purdue football game that Christmas of my senior year in high school, The Alamo Bowl. At the time, Drew Brees was the quarterback at Purdue and all I remember about that game was how I could not turn away from it. There was something about the excitement, the unknown, the win or lose factor......I sat in front of that TV for three hours and walked away thinking that I can't wait to see this stuff live. I was hooked.
From that moment on I couldn't get enough of college football. The next four years I spent in the marching band, with front row seats to some of the best times of my life...from nail bitters with 75,000 people, to bowl trips in California. I loved every minute of if.
So here we are today, three years after college and I still love college football. Trying to watch every game that I can catch...of course mostly Purdue, but also other games, including some amazing feats this past week. If you didn't see any of the BCS games, you missed some great football that the BCS hasn't seen for a very long time......shouts out to all my Big Ten hommies.....Penn St, OSU....thank you for carrying the torch that is Big Ten football.
And, with the college football season coming to an end...the NFL playoffs stepped right in to take up that lack of time that I was sure was coming for me on my lonely Saturdays. With the home team in the playoff picture still I'm sure that my Saturdays and memorable moments aren't coming to an end any time soon.

A helping hand

So today the roomie and I watched Extreme Home Makeover and I have to say that I was overwhelmed by all the emotions that were on that show. I actually try to make it a rule not to watch on a regular basis, because I know that I will just end up in a emotional mess. The end
The show this week for those of you who did not see it was about a family from Kansas whose house blew up because there was a propane leak in the house. Luckily they were on vacation when it happened so no one was injured. Unfortunately, they were on vacation so they had to come home to this big ass hole in the ground. That would suck.....I could not imagine coming home to something like that...let alone knowing that I have to come home to nothing. What the hell would you do??
Long story short, they got a bomb ass house and a bunch of other stuff like a full 4yr ride to K-State...I think.
The whole time I was watching it, I just kept thinking how luck Ty is to have a job where he can help people out. Then I started to think about my life and job and how I in some small way get to help people out. Granted I don't build anyone a house.....the only thing I've ever built was a dust pan in metal shop in 8th grade...which I end up cutting my finger on. Oh well....anyway the point is that I love that I get to help out....but I also feel like I should do more.
What that more is....I don't know. Maybe, volunteer at some place......who knows. I just know that I feel like I have a ton more to do in this life and if that involves helping others...then I'm more then willing to lend a hand.

New Year, New Me??

So I know that I'm a little late with the New Year's Post, but whatever....eat me.
I have to say that 2005 was "The year of Change"....
I finally decided to do what I've always wanted to do...for those of you who missed it, I quit my job and followed my passion.....

So this is how I was originally going to start this post but as I started to write I started to think about how I've really followed my heart and in doing so change came about. Which I can't say that I'm unhappy about. If I have learned anything about 2005 it's that I should listen to my heart when it comes to all matters; relationships, jobs, friends, and even my bank account. That is all I will say about 2005.....yeah, I had some amazing times and some low ones, but I look forward to taking those things both lows and highs into 2006 and making the most of it.

The latest news

So....me and Tony have talked. I have to tell you that on Tues, I called him and he didn't call me back and I went totally crazy. I probably called him about 8-10 times, plus text messages, plus a million e-mails. By the time I went to sleep I was asking myself what the hell I was doing....the answer, trying to save a relationship that I want and need so bad. I love him too much to lose him over some psycho......
I have yet to comment on my relationship with him...so here you go (please note, this will be the one and only time you will get this).....
Tony makes me feel so good about myself. The end. I have never been with someone who questioned me for all the right reasons, never been with someone that told me that I'm a beautiful person, never been with someone that when I look at them I see my entire future in their eyes.......I love him and don't want to ever lose him.....
In the end I know that this is something that just won't go away, I don't expect it to. It will always be that one incident that stopped our relationship for so many hours, minutes, seconds.....What I do know and hope is that this will be something that we work through, together, just like any other problem that may arise in the future......and hopefully that will be a long one.....Together.

What to say

So I came home to St. Louis on Wed. night and I have to say that things have not been so great. Every time I come home, I always seem to get into some kind of funk. It's not that I don't like St. Louis. In fact, I love being from this city. I think that overall I just was a different person when I lived here.

I wasn't out at all when I lived in St. Louis. So I guess in some ways, coming home always reminds me of a lesser "me"....someone who was ashamed of who they were. Not that my childhood was bad in any way. Most of the time I recall home being ok. But, there was always that feeling, that I'm not who I am. And in some ways St. Louis makes me feel like I'm not who I am....

In some ways, I guess it would help if I were to tell my family about me being gay. I mean my mom knows, but my brother and sister or anyone else for that matter, know nothing. I don't know why I haven't told them...in some ways, I guess I'm scared of what there reactions will be. When I told my mom about three or four years ago, her reaction was nothing that I imagined....instead it was one of peace. Did she ever cry?? I don't know, at least not in front of me. But when I did tell her, she did ask that not tell my brother or sister or anyone else.
I can say that in some ways, I understood why she didn't want me to tell others, she was still dealing with it in her own way. But, I know and feel that it's time to tell others. I hate coming home and not talking about the people in my life. Tony, Chris, Chuck, Bernie, or any of the other great people that make me who I am today.

Tomorrow I'm suppose to spend the day with my brother and sister.....I hate planning things like this, but I feel like if I don't say something now, I'll be 40 before I say anything.....and I don't want to be that guy.

The Latest News

So...there is still no new news with me and Tony....instead things are at bay for right now, while he thinks about "things".
I have decided that I have to be at peace with what ever happens, because being outrages and furious about things won't help. Instead I have to realize that there are good people and bad people in this world. It's life. There will always be people who want to bring us down in this world, the key is to stay focused on what we want and see nothing else. I know what it is that I want...as far as the person that did this to me....we'll Karma is a bitch.

Life Ruiner

So today at my job some co-workers and I were saying how we are life ruiners. We had to call students today that got deferred to the university until Spring admissions. Some of the kids I talked to took the news pretty well, wanting to know what they could do to further their chances to get into the university, while others were completely devastated. So in a sense "life ruiners". Some of this kids were hoping so much that they would get a letter in the mail that would say "Welcome", instead they will get a letter that says "You are on Hold".
I really love my job, but happen to hate this part because it is the side of human emotion that comes along with it but no one every really talks about. Kind of like relationships.
In yesterdays post(which btw, I know was a little heavy)I talked about how Tony's trust in me is shook. Well that's the thing...we never talked about the trust or lack thereof that we had for each other or our relationship. Instead, we took for granted that the other person could be trusted with no questions asked. Was that the right thing to do? Should we all enter relationships with little stickers that say "please let me know right now if I can't trust you"....or any other of the questions that never really come up.
In saying this, I guess the point is that we never really thing about the bad times that we might have with a person we are in a relationship with. Instead, we focus on all the positives....at least until the negatives happen. Which leads me to ask...."Is not asking questions, a Life Ruiner??"

Good bye and Good night....

So what I'm about to tell you is the truth....


When I was dating this one guy here in DC I was still in constant communication with Rick ( if you don't know that story, you'll have to go back and read)......anywho, I told the guy that I was dating here in DC about Rick, because I felt like it was important for him to know that I loved someone else. This guy would always ask, does "Rick" know that you are dating me and I would always say yes. I was always very honest with "Rick", because I felt in order for us to move on, truth would be important. Neither of us expected the other not to date and or see other people, we knew it would happen. In being honest I never really told "Rick" that I was dating this guy in DC....it was just kind of understood. But, the guy in DC would always ask "are you sure that "Rick" knows about me??"
So one day, I got an e-mail from "Rick" that said....."So, I got an email from someone I don't even know saying that you are in a relationship. After being in Peace Corps I don't listen to rumors. You can tell me if you are with someone, I would understand. As a friend of mine puts it, "Our organism has biological needs." Ah, the wisdom of the Kyrgyz."
I wrote him back and told him everything.....in the end he end up calling me and saying that it doesn't really matter. He just didn't know why someone he doesn't know would e-mail him. I told him that they were probably trying to ruin what we have....he agreed and we never spoke about it again.
I later would ask the guy that I was dating in DC about the whole e-mail situation....not really suggesting that he did it....but I guess in some ways I did think he did it. He got really upset and didn't understand how I could blame him for something like this and so I dropped it and instead tried to think of who else would do something so child like. A lot of names came in and out of my mind, some were friends, others were enemies. When it was all said and done I just decided that it wasn't worth all the time and energy to try and figure out who or why it was done.

Well that whole situation happened in May and I have since started dating someone else and never really thought about it until now.


Tonight I got a phone call from Tony that I knew was going to not so great. He sounded very worried and almost distant. After some prodding he finally told me that he just received an e-mail from someone named Mike Smith that said the following..."Hey, Sorry if I did anything inappropriate last night....I have issues, which I'm sure you know.. I would still like to get together before I go home. Think about it and let me know. These are all words that I wrote to my friend Jeff. This is what he wrote back....."Hey you...it's no problem. It takes two to tango, ya know? We're both "guilty" of that. You didn't do anything over the top inappropriate, so don't worry. I had a great time; was hurtin' a little bit earlier in the day, but it's all good now. How about you....did you make it home or did you stay at Chuck's? What's you schedule like next week and when do you get back from NY? Maybe we could do dinner on Monday or Tuesday next week?"
Tony didn't read this e-mail to me word for word, but just the jest of if. To make a long story short, he asked me what the hell the e-mail was about and what did I do that was so inappropriate. I told him that I didn't do anything and if anything I was just apologizing for being drunk. In the midst of this whole conversation I also got very angry and there was some shouting going on.

The back story is Tony's ex cheated on him. I don't know much about the situation and don't really want to. I do know that truth is a big thing with Tony because of it. So now, he gets this e-mail and doesn't know what to think.

After a lot of yelling and if you to happen to notice what time it is when while I'm writing this, things did not come to and ending. If anything, Tony's trust in me has been shook and I can't do anything about it. I told him that nothing happened and he just kept saying that he finds it hard to believe me when I say that because of what the e-mail says. I told him that I can't do anything but tell him the truth and that unfortunately if he doesn't believe me now, he won't believe me later. We left it at that and I crying and he saying that he needed to think.

Whatever happens tomorrow, I know that whoever sent the e-mail wanted to see me hurt, my relationship gone....and that just might happen. Who knows. What I do know is that whoever this person is, I hate them.

THANK YOU FOR TAKING ONE OF THE BEST THINGS FROM ME......MY TRUST

New Look

So as you can see I've got a new look....I thought it would get me ready for the new year, which I'm only too sure that many changes will come......."cha,cha, changes.
Love that song.

BTW....I like to start post with the word "So"....it's almost like I'm picking up a conversation with an old friend I'm on the phone with and I just told you to hold on....oh well

Questions....

I've decided that from time to time, I'm going to blog about questions that enter my mind. Maybe I'll answer them, maybe I won't; here we go.....

-Why does it feel like when we have a really good group of friends, it seems like it's harder to make new friends??

-Why do people on the bus stop talk to you when they see that you are wearing headphones.

-What ever happen to the people that you were friends with in high school??

-How much can one person change in a year?

Weekend Roundup

This past weekend I went to New York to see "the bf". What I thought was going to be a relaxing weekend together....did not turn out that way.
I went up to NYC with the knowledge that his sister was coming up for the day on Saturday and that there was going to be a few activities that we where going to do but I had no idea what I was really in store for.
I woke up on Saturday with the thought that we were going to meet his sister and her husband and son around 12:00 and then go from there. What ensued was a non-stop tour of NYC during the holidays. First there was the tour of Time Square at 1pm with 3million other people. Next, there was the walk from Time Square to the USS Intrepid, a battle ship turned museum. After the battle ship, there was a quick walk down 5th Ave, to look at all the window decorations. Finally, there was a look at the Rockefella Christmas tree and then a journey to the "Top of the Rock". After that was said and done, we grabbed a bite at a very random diner. As you can see it was a pretty long day.
I have to say in the moment I probably didn't enjoy everything as much as I should have. I expected to come to NYC and spend time with the other half and just relax. So many of our visits include others and doing other things with other people, I just was prepared for some nice alone time. I knew that his sister was coming up, so I def. knew what I was getting into, but I just felt like again, "our" time together was shortened. So of course now looking back on the whole weekend, I couldn't have chosen a better person to see so many things that others only get to see on TV with.
I have decided that we probably won't get alone time until a while after the holidays, it's just the way things work. We both know a lot of people, and love spending time with those people. So until we get to spend our alone time, I'll cherish all the moments that we spend with others together.