So.....this past weekend opened up the Summer Season with a bang that I'm sure was felt all the way to Cali and back.
Let's see......
I remember being at brunch with 15 amazing people and endless amounts of pitchers of alcohol....
I remember secret Long Islands at Jury's....
I remember three thermoboost...
I remember Jr's.....going there not really what happened there...
I remember being at lizard lounge and being a walking prostitute.....
And I remember eating like a fat girl that was just told that she didn't make the second round of auditions of "West Side Story".....
A link to someone else's blog will follow shortly, hold please while we connect you...Transferring
Monday, May 30, 2005
Friday, May 27, 2005
These things do 'appen
So......about a year and half ago I decided that I had enough of Pittsburgh and it's lackluster scene. I told myself that it was time for a change, not only in my life, but also in my career. I took a job with a company I knew little about and moved to a city that I had only remembered in drunken hazes. All in all, I have to say that my time here has been one of great exploration of myself and a city that I thought I would never be able to handle.
When I told my friends that I was moving to DC, a lot of them were like "good for you, but are you going to be ok there?" I would just smile and say "Sure, why not." That's when most of them would start telling me about the crime problem, the drugs and the cost of living, things that they thought I would have no clue on how to handle. So I guess in retrospect(I love that word) I never gave any of those things a second thought. If anything I thought I'm packing my bags and my bootleg car and taking my ass to DC, and things will only happen if they were meant to. In being honest with myself, I knew the only thing that I would miss out of everything would be the friends that I had come to make in Pittsburgh (there are things that I will never forget and probably never write about, until my bio comes out). So with only that thought I prepared myself for what was surely going to be a wild ride.
So now, I prepare myself to take on year two, and I can't wait. I have made some amazing friends here, people that I honestly don't think that I can live without. Every time something bad happens and I get into a disgusting funk, I'm reminded of how great my life truly is thru my friends and our amazing times. There was MLKSB '05 trip, a fierce walk-off, and countless nights of chaotic mishaps. And if year one was any test of how great things do 'appen, then I can't wait for year number 3.
When I told my friends that I was moving to DC, a lot of them were like "good for you, but are you going to be ok there?" I would just smile and say "Sure, why not." That's when most of them would start telling me about the crime problem, the drugs and the cost of living, things that they thought I would have no clue on how to handle. So I guess in retrospect(I love that word) I never gave any of those things a second thought. If anything I thought I'm packing my bags and my bootleg car and taking my ass to DC, and things will only happen if they were meant to. In being honest with myself, I knew the only thing that I would miss out of everything would be the friends that I had come to make in Pittsburgh (there are things that I will never forget and probably never write about, until my bio comes out). So with only that thought I prepared myself for what was surely going to be a wild ride.
So now, I prepare myself to take on year two, and I can't wait. I have made some amazing friends here, people that I honestly don't think that I can live without. Every time something bad happens and I get into a disgusting funk, I'm reminded of how great my life truly is thru my friends and our amazing times. There was MLKSB '05 trip, a fierce walk-off, and countless nights of chaotic mishaps. And if year one was any test of how great things do 'appen, then I can't wait for year number 3.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
The next big thing
So I've been thinking more and more about what I did. Quitting the job and all. There are some days when I think it was the best thing I've ever done in my life. Then there are others when I doubt everything I've done in my life. I know that what I did was done for a reason. In the short term I only see that reason as I needed time to take a step back and ask myself what the hell I was doing. But, maybe in the long run I'll never know what the real reason is.
The whole job thing is getting more and more frustrating with each day. I send a least one or two resumes a day out. So I've been out of work for four weeks so that about 50 some odd resumes out there floating around or sitting in someone's trash can. But what more can I do. I could be that crazy person and go knocking down people's doors, but I don't think they would like that too much. (that makes me think of that one movie when the guy sends in his videotape to some college then he doesn't get in so he goes to the school and acts all crazy-can't think of the title, but good movie none-the-less) Random thought
But sometimes that's how I feel.....
In the end I know that all I can do is keep on trucking.....complaining wont get me anywhere, but it sure does feel good.
The whole job thing is getting more and more frustrating with each day. I send a least one or two resumes a day out. So I've been out of work for four weeks so that about 50 some odd resumes out there floating around or sitting in someone's trash can. But what more can I do. I could be that crazy person and go knocking down people's doors, but I don't think they would like that too much. (that makes me think of that one movie when the guy sends in his videotape to some college then he doesn't get in so he goes to the school and acts all crazy-can't think of the title, but good movie none-the-less) Random thought
But sometimes that's how I feel.....
In the end I know that all I can do is keep on trucking.....complaining wont get me anywhere, but it sure does feel good.
Things that come and go
So the other day while watching TV a commercial for "Everybody Loves Raymond" came on. It was talking about how it was the last episode and that got me thinking about all the shows that I've seen come and go. I think the first one I remember was Silver Spoons, little Ricky Schroeder. Then there was Whose the Boss, I tell you what that Tony Danza was some looker back in the day. Then came Saved by the Bell, 90210, the Cosby's, A different world, Senfield, Sex and the City and a host of others. If our lives were measured in TV time, I would be way past ancient....I think that I would have lived multiple lives by now. Thank God there not.
When it rains it pours
So the weather outside has been just a metaphor of my life the past couple of days. It's cold, cloudy most of the day, and it keeps raining.
So I had this job interview last week and I kept telling myself not to get my hopes about this job. To make a long story short I had interviewed with four different people, four different times at this one company only to be told in the end that they didn't think that they were going to be able to offer me a job that was challenging enough for me-WHAT DOES THAT MEAN- I don't think that I asked to be president or anything major, but in the end I guess it wasn't meant to be. Now, I'm back to temping and hating it. It's not so much the temping that I hate, it's the whole "Hi, my name is Nick" part. I can't tell you how many people I've introduced myself to only to have them call me "the temp". Temping is a world all it's own. Made for people I think that want to find themselves while making money....but what are you suppose to do if you already know who you are.
So I had this job interview last week and I kept telling myself not to get my hopes about this job. To make a long story short I had interviewed with four different people, four different times at this one company only to be told in the end that they didn't think that they were going to be able to offer me a job that was challenging enough for me-WHAT DOES THAT MEAN- I don't think that I asked to be president or anything major, but in the end I guess it wasn't meant to be. Now, I'm back to temping and hating it. It's not so much the temping that I hate, it's the whole "Hi, my name is Nick" part. I can't tell you how many people I've introduced myself to only to have them call me "the temp". Temping is a world all it's own. Made for people I think that want to find themselves while making money....but what are you suppose to do if you already know who you are.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Amazing
So last nite was the finale to "The Amazing Race"......words can not explain how amazing it was. If you don't watch the show I will spare you with my season recap and just say that you should really get in on this next season. It's pretty much the same plot as survivor, but instead of the whole voting thing, contestants are booted off the show for coming in last place during different missions.
The couple that won last nite, I don't have words for. During the entire Race, these people never once threw their morals and or values aside for the prize, $1 million. Instead they kept to them. Always willing to lend a helping hand, be it money, advice, or just wisdom. No even in the last minutes of last nites show when they were mere footsteps away from the prize, did they throw everything aside. Instead they begged complete strangers for a cab fare that they owed. Only after they paid did they round the final corner and claim a prize that was rightfully theirs. In a world that has grown so accustomed to letting the "bad guy" win in order to sell one more "coke" or one more "car", we got to see the "good guys" take their moment in the sun. Finally, and that moment was AMAZING
The couple that won last nite, I don't have words for. During the entire Race, these people never once threw their morals and or values aside for the prize, $1 million. Instead they kept to them. Always willing to lend a helping hand, be it money, advice, or just wisdom. No even in the last minutes of last nites show when they were mere footsteps away from the prize, did they throw everything aside. Instead they begged complete strangers for a cab fare that they owed. Only after they paid did they round the final corner and claim a prize that was rightfully theirs. In a world that has grown so accustomed to letting the "bad guy" win in order to sell one more "coke" or one more "car", we got to see the "good guys" take their moment in the sun. Finally, and that moment was AMAZING
Job hunting
So I'm into my third week of no job and I have to tell you that I'm kind of over it.
I've been doing temp stuff and I have to say that I don't think that I can continue this. Everyday I pass homeless people on the street and I have to think about what is keeping me from their shoes...is it determination, needing to be someplace better, or is that I just want it more then they do. What is it that keeps these people homeless???
Yes, I know that a lot of homeless people are in their situation because of mental health issues. But what about those who say they lack the proper job skills and or education. What do you say about those people?? In the end I have to say that it comes down to choices. The choice to want a better life is there for everyone, but it's about making those choices that lead up to that better life that get us all
in the end.
If we choose not to wake up in the morning and go look for a job, but instead stay in bed and wake up at 3 in the afternoon and then complain about not having a job. If we choose to use drugs so much that we become addicted to them and let them control our lives, these are the choices that we make and have to make everyday in order to have that better life.
So I guess I'll choose to keep wanting, keep choosing,the better life.
I've been doing temp stuff and I have to say that I don't think that I can continue this. Everyday I pass homeless people on the street and I have to think about what is keeping me from their shoes...is it determination, needing to be someplace better, or is that I just want it more then they do. What is it that keeps these people homeless???
Yes, I know that a lot of homeless people are in their situation because of mental health issues. But what about those who say they lack the proper job skills and or education. What do you say about those people?? In the end I have to say that it comes down to choices. The choice to want a better life is there for everyone, but it's about making those choices that lead up to that better life that get us all
in the end.
If we choose not to wake up in the morning and go look for a job, but instead stay in bed and wake up at 3 in the afternoon and then complain about not having a job. If we choose to use drugs so much that we become addicted to them and let them control our lives, these are the choices that we make and have to make everyday in order to have that better life.
So I guess I'll choose to keep wanting, keep choosing,the better life.
I've been gone for a min.....
So I had to take a break for a bit there.....after posting a few entries I got some feedback that wasn't so great that made me think about why I'm really writing this blog. It was said that I pour my heart into my entries. Then the other day while watching the Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson, in his monologue....he made a comment, " Too all those people blogging, NO ONE CARES"....or something like that.
There is no real reason I've decided. It's not like I don't have anyone to talk to about things that go on in my life or anything like that. Actually I have some really amazing friends, who are always willing to listen and give their advice even when it's not asked for. The only reason I came up with during my brief time away, was that I do this so that maybe someone who reads this can say "exactly, I was thinking the same thing", or "that happened to me also." The feeling of knowing that we are not alone during some the hardest times in our lives, I think is one of the best feelings of all. To know that we are not the first nor the last to go thru unemployment, heartache, or even drunken times at strip clubs, makes everything a little easier to sallow at the end of the day before I close my eyes.
So to anyone who says that I pour my heart into this thing or to anyone like Craig Ferguson, who says no one cares.....to you I say........nothing at all, NO ONE CARES...
There is no real reason I've decided. It's not like I don't have anyone to talk to about things that go on in my life or anything like that. Actually I have some really amazing friends, who are always willing to listen and give their advice even when it's not asked for. The only reason I came up with during my brief time away, was that I do this so that maybe someone who reads this can say "exactly, I was thinking the same thing", or "that happened to me also." The feeling of knowing that we are not alone during some the hardest times in our lives, I think is one of the best feelings of all. To know that we are not the first nor the last to go thru unemployment, heartache, or even drunken times at strip clubs, makes everything a little easier to sallow at the end of the day before I close my eyes.
So to anyone who says that I pour my heart into this thing or to anyone like Craig Ferguson, who says no one cares.....to you I say........nothing at all, NO ONE CARES...
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Strip......
So last nite me and the girls went out for what was sure to be interesting times. We make our way to a friends b-day party, which was good. It was at his house and not too many people. Saw some familiar faces and got to reconnect with some others. After one b-day celebration we moved on to another. Only this one was not to be held in a house, but instead at a Strip Club of sorts. Now, I'm not one to venture into places of this kind often, but I have been known to get my groove on at "Hot Chocolate" once or twice, but nothing more then that. I just have never been in love with the thought of naked boys and or girls dancing around. It's just weird to see flopping penis' and or tit's shake to the beat of Janet's latest hits. On top of that the club's here in DC are a little interesting......the things that one can see in places of this nature are not things that I can type about without blushing....
All in all I say if the only way you can get right is to take off all your clothes and dance around naked like there is no tomorrow, then go for. Just not in my face or in my drink...
All in all I say if the only way you can get right is to take off all your clothes and dance around naked like there is no tomorrow, then go for. Just not in my face or in my drink...
Friday, April 29, 2005
Things that PoP
I have decided that I am in love with Pop culture......I can't get enough of it. VH1, love it.....Mtv, can't get enough.....Bravo, I live for it.
For instance, there is a show on Bravo called "Show Dogs, Mom's and Dad's". If you have not seen it I suggest you settle yourself in on a Wed. nite and enjoy the show. It's so good. These people are all showing their dogs at the Philadelphia dog show, but the show focus' on what it takes to get to that point. It's like an amazing ride through crazy town. I love it. There is this really funny "gay" couple on the show that I just watch with awe every episode. To tell the truth the show reminds me of a movie called "Best in Show"....which if you haven't see you need to stop with the craziness. It is so funny...
Another show that I can't live without is ANTM (and if you don't know what that means, I feel for you). It is probably one of my favorite shows on T.V right now. It reminds me a lot of my lost love for Mtv's darling gone dry "Real World"..use to love that show, not so much anymore. Back to ANTM....the show tries to find what else, but America's Next Top Model. I love the show, because unlike Survivor or Big Brother or even The Amazing Race(which I love too) these girls are being put through semi-realistic test that a lot of beginning models go through. But, besides that aspect, the drama is amazing.
My other love, which I don't know how long it will last, American Idol. I have to say that I'm one of the many that text their vote every Tues nite....sometimes multiple times. But in recent days I have started to wonder about the show and the outcome. In the beginning the show really was about talent, who could sing the best while having stage presence. Kelly, I love you and your cd's. But recently, the show has moved from looking for talent to being this popularity contest. For instance (I know that some will be upset with this) Constantine. Now, for those of you who don't know, this young man was in the touring production of "Rent", which I hope means that he is very good at what he does. But his performance on Idol was nothing short of a Drama Queen gone wrong. He always seemed to be putting on a Vegas stage act, instead of just singing and wowing the crowd that way. So he lasted for a while on the show thanks to his groupie following of young girls and I'm sure from the way he walked, even young boys. I fear that Idol has gone from this great PoP show to just Popping......
For instance, there is a show on Bravo called "Show Dogs, Mom's and Dad's". If you have not seen it I suggest you settle yourself in on a Wed. nite and enjoy the show. It's so good. These people are all showing their dogs at the Philadelphia dog show, but the show focus' on what it takes to get to that point. It's like an amazing ride through crazy town. I love it. There is this really funny "gay" couple on the show that I just watch with awe every episode. To tell the truth the show reminds me of a movie called "Best in Show"....which if you haven't see you need to stop with the craziness. It is so funny...
Another show that I can't live without is ANTM (and if you don't know what that means, I feel for you). It is probably one of my favorite shows on T.V right now. It reminds me a lot of my lost love for Mtv's darling gone dry "Real World"..use to love that show, not so much anymore. Back to ANTM....the show tries to find what else, but America's Next Top Model. I love the show, because unlike Survivor or Big Brother or even The Amazing Race(which I love too) these girls are being put through semi-realistic test that a lot of beginning models go through. But, besides that aspect, the drama is amazing.
My other love, which I don't know how long it will last, American Idol. I have to say that I'm one of the many that text their vote every Tues nite....sometimes multiple times. But in recent days I have started to wonder about the show and the outcome. In the beginning the show really was about talent, who could sing the best while having stage presence. Kelly, I love you and your cd's. But recently, the show has moved from looking for talent to being this popularity contest. For instance (I know that some will be upset with this) Constantine. Now, for those of you who don't know, this young man was in the touring production of "Rent", which I hope means that he is very good at what he does. But his performance on Idol was nothing short of a Drama Queen gone wrong. He always seemed to be putting on a Vegas stage act, instead of just singing and wowing the crowd that way. So he lasted for a while on the show thanks to his groupie following of young girls and I'm sure from the way he walked, even young boys. I fear that Idol has gone from this great PoP show to just Popping......
Thursday, April 28, 2005
When's the last time you jumped......
When I was young I loved jumping off of our stairs that led to the basement. I would always start with one step...then two...then five....then I would finally sum up the courage and jump from the top stair. Closing my eyes, holding my breath, and hoping to god that I would land on my feet at the bottom instead of on top of another step or even worse falling competely on my face. There would always be those times that I didn't make it to the bottom of the staiirs....but somehow I would go at it again and start all over...........
So this whole new chapter thing is finding me in a really new place. For the first time in my life I have done what I want...in so many words. A lot of people told me not to quite my job without having one lined up.....but I knew that if I stayed at my past job that I would keep hating myself. You see I have always thought that lfe is way too short to do things that make you unhappy, because when it's all over do you really want to say "Well I only had so many happy times in life that I can really remember." No of course not. I'm not saying that every moment in life needs to be happy, but why waste time in doing things that make us unhappy. I'm over it......
So with that thought I left a job that i had been at for a year that made me unhappy almost everyday that I was there. But the thing was that I wasn't ready to make that full leap, so again I took a job that made me unhappy. And then one day, after working at this new unhappy job for three weeks I called in and quite. I finally closed my eyes and held my breath........and jumped.
From that point on, my life has been in a place that I am unfamiliar with which is probably the best jump that I've made in years.
So this whole new chapter thing is finding me in a really new place. For the first time in my life I have done what I want...in so many words. A lot of people told me not to quite my job without having one lined up.....but I knew that if I stayed at my past job that I would keep hating myself. You see I have always thought that lfe is way too short to do things that make you unhappy, because when it's all over do you really want to say "Well I only had so many happy times in life that I can really remember." No of course not. I'm not saying that every moment in life needs to be happy, but why waste time in doing things that make us unhappy. I'm over it......
So with that thought I left a job that i had been at for a year that made me unhappy almost everyday that I was there. But the thing was that I wasn't ready to make that full leap, so again I took a job that made me unhappy. And then one day, after working at this new unhappy job for three weeks I called in and quite. I finally closed my eyes and held my breath........and jumped.
From that point on, my life has been in a place that I am unfamiliar with which is probably the best jump that I've made in years.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
A New Chapter
So I've always viewed my life as a kind of book that just won't end until I'm dead or no longer able to talk.....neither has happened yet. So a new chapter has started in my life and I have to say that it is the first chapter that I'm truly proud of....well there was the gay chapter, but that doesn't count b/c OBVI that chapter was bound to happen. The newest chapter I'm working on is that of doing what I have a passion for.....meaning work. I recently quite my J.O.B, all b/c I wasn't happy anymore with what I was doing. Problem....a small one considering that I'm a broke bitch and I have no job waiting in the background. But I have to say that I'm glad I took this one moment in life to close my eyes and just jump rather then waiting for something to happen. I have to say that I'm a bit scared by the current unknowns, but I look forward to accepting every new challenge that comes my way.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
TAXES
I am done with this whole tax thing....isn't it enough that I pay taxes on all the latest designs from name brand designers...but to make me do them on my own is a bit much. I mean all the rules, guidelines, deadlines, I'm over it
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Believe it or Not.....This is My First Time
How do I start this.....I have to say that I decided that I should start a blog, because all I do is talk to myself all day long, so why not put those thoughts out to pasture and let the world know how crazy I am. Like today I was driving to work in the VA and talked to myself the whole way to work. And of course I talked about nothing, cops, the blue sky, gas prices and that type. Then I realized that I should just call someone and talk to them. So after a good convo with a good friend about my job situation I hung up the phone and started all over again, except this time the conversation with myself consisted of why people in Va can't drive and how I really didn't want to get out of bed. Oh well......
So I guess my mission with this blog will be to let the world know what this crazy bitch is thinking every now and then. Feel free to share your thoughts and or comments. But trust if you comment you will be sucked into my world and as most can tell you, once you are in you can't get out.
Peace, Love, and Hair Grease to all the fans
So I guess my mission with this blog will be to let the world know what this crazy bitch is thinking every now and then. Feel free to share your thoughts and or comments. But trust if you comment you will be sucked into my world and as most can tell you, once you are in you can't get out.
Peace, Love, and Hair Grease to all the fans
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